Morning Bell...

Middle of the night, well at least for an early-to-bed and early-to-rise person like me, and I can't sleep. As cliche as this sounds, I want to tell you in my best Kanye West voice, "these dreams be keeping me up at night". I won't expose my heart, because out of it flows my spring of life, but know that I have written it on a tablet and made it plain. Another scripture on my brain is, "without vision the people perish". I apologize to anyone that thinks I'm speaking in code; because I am, kinda like Nina-isms as a few of my friends call it. My personality tends to be very random, but when I set my heart and mind like a flint to something, my tunnel vision is impeccable! The ooooonnlllyyy issue I have with being in this mode is that my stomach switches to it as well. When my emotions heighten, one could easily be led to believe my stomach is trying out for the olympics: long jump, high jump, sprints, long distance, hurdles and shot put. At any rate, as I lay in my dark room, no light except for the glow from the windows emitted by the street lights and the bright light of my blackberry, I am thankful for a vision. I am also thankful, in advance, that God will fulfill it. Ohhhhh you thought I lay awake in nervousness? *chuckle*

Morning Randoms: 12.13.10

"If you see or hear goodness from me/Then that goodness is from The Creator/You should be thankful to The Creator for all of that/'Cause I'm not the architect of that/I'm only the recipient/If you see weakness or shortcoming in me/It's from my own weakness or shortcoming/And I ask The Creator and the people to forgive me for that" - Mos Def

"But you hate one another because each of you deems himself too great to be the brother of the next man." K.Gibran

"Man would dream [Jesus's] dream but he would not wake to [Jesus's] dawn. Which is his greater dream." -K.Gibran

"You cannot live your life to please others. The choice must be yours because when you step out to face that creature, you will step out alone." -Alice in Wonderland

Side Note:

• Yes, I realize how random those all are; that those sources aren't normally seen together. If you know my randomness, then you get it. Otherwise... **shrug**
  

Bookmark

That picture of us, black and white in color, but filled with the vivacious auras of joy, laughter and love. I see them clearly. I think I see flickers of hope sprinkled sparingly throughout, but I realize now it wasn't saturated enough to keep it going. Yep, that picture, the one you always wanted copies of; I use it as a bookmark now. Not sure of the significance. I decided it was a wise, unselfish and loving decision to let you go, but I'm not sure why I haven't locked that picture away in my trunk filled with past treasures. I know fully that I can not ask God to release the treasures he's stored up for me, while holding on selfishly to someone else's.
Back to the subject at hand: the bookmark. The wanderlust in me will forever be a bag lady for books: three in the purse, two in the trunk of my car, and that's just what I can recall right now. Flipped through the pages of one, on to the second and cracked open the third, only to see that thread of pictures. I scan each one like it's anew. I've always liked how picture booths can do that, innocently capture fleeting moments, feelings, and emotions that would otherwise go unnoticed. Anyway, in spite of my renewed awe, I decide that I need to purchase a new bookmark today.

*expressions by Nina B.*

My Randomness...

This song makes me feel like I should be dancing in the kitchen cooking paella or inside a sexy tapas bar having sangria (white being my favorite) with my closest friends =) It makes me happy! Can't wait for Puerto Rico in January... much needed getaway!

To be continued (pt. 1)

Cold winters force a slow and steady pace. Thoughts scurry in and out the brain's loop. Holes. Less sunshine doesn't mean less light. On the contrary, it calls for a retrospect of sorts. Sometimes I feign to be shallow, think less, have less headaches and accept lies shipped out by society as they freight in on the railways of everyday life. Not really confusion, no... Not at all confused. Simply a search for enlightenment that won't cease. The paradigm begs to shift as my subject positioning remains. I am now more equipped to handle the vast array of information presented to me and sort it appropriately. The person within pulled the cord... "stop requested". Hold for a moment as I battle the paralysis...

*expressions by Nina B.*

Sun is Always Shining =) ... even when it's cold out!

"When the morning gathers the rainbow/ Want you to know I'm a rainbow too"

'08

Ok, so this wasn’t suppose to happen.
Now what?
That moment in time when every THING stands still, and what would seem completely bad turns out not to be (so much). Unnecessary memories fade, you only see today and flashes of tomorrow...next week... next month... next year... the following decades. There’s beauty in this! There’s beauty in this! There’s beauty. In this.

Epiphanies blossom.
Realizations emerge.
Embodied moments.
Regrets denied.
Defeats NOT accepted.
Triumphs indeed.
Non, je ne regrette rien
Endings end.
Beginnings begin.

Thank you for this chance, I owe you more than I know!
Turning point.
*Expressions by Nina B.